Your words in my memory, are like music to me.

Hey you, I was gonna write yesterday but then I just didn't know what to put. I kept writing a load of shit, words that didn't do you justice. But just now I was thinking about all the things I wanted to say and then saw you'd been of facebook and I don't know I felt, kind of, guilty. Like you were expecting me to have sent you a message and I'd disappointed you, let you down. I'm sorry for that baby, especially when you go to the effort of sending me a text daily.
That text ah. Seeing your name pop up on my phone yesterday was such a surprise, an amazing one at that, it put the biggest smile on my face and then today every time my phone went off every bit of me was just hoping it was you. Ha that's so sad I know right?
Thing is I don't know if I'm going to be able to reply to them while in Bulgaria. My daddy rang me earlier and told me I have to leave my phone at home while we're gone 'cause he can't afford any charges, which he already has but oh well. I told him I was taking it, whether I'll have signal or be able to reply without it getting confiscated is another issue but I'll try, I promise you I'll try. And if I can't I'll definitely find a way of getting on Facebook, believe me baby.
I also just wanted to say thank you for seeing me on Sunday night. I went back to the bench today ha, went for a walk and just stopped there, gosh I'm such a loser ha.

Any way that's enough of me moaning and going on. How's the holiday going? You having fun?
You better not be getting any more tanned I swear ha, I'll look like a ghost compared to you in the end ;L.
Ah I went to see Toy Story 3 today, it's amazing! Nearly cried though mind ;L, ha I make myself sound so so cool don't I. Maybe I need a life ;).
Now I'm just making crappy small talk ha, oh dear I'll stop.

I guess I'll speak to you soon then, I'll be looking forward to my text tomorrow ;).
Have fun, I miss you. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

YOU DON'T KNOW SHIT.

You can all sit there and write all that anonymous shit about me on that website.
Go on call me a home wrecking whore, tell me I'm the slut in this situation. That I'm heartless. Go for it but you don't know shit. None of you do.
No one except us to know what really happened and when I say no one I mean no one, all because I tried to protect him so I just told the extent that he wanted to tell.
Only one other person other than us two saw the other part of it too. The texts.
All of this I did to protect him and yet he turns around and blames me too.
You all fucking blame me.

Not gonna lie it's finally gotten to me. Mostly because I do not, one bit deserve the amount of shit I've got compaired to everyone else.

Fuck you all, I'm done.

Everyday is special, you have made me believe.

Hold me in your arms cause I'm falling.


Oh hey. Wow I haven't blogged in a while, I have a lot to fill you in on. So this is going to be overly long :').

Firstly I had the most amazing week with my best friend. T4 on the beach was great once again, oh my PIXIE LOTT(L). FML I'm in love!
And Dizzee Rascal, but no words can explain how amazing he is.
Just a week chilling at the beach away from here, was well great. I love love love love love the beach!
Roll on next year again, a whole group of us me thinks, should be fab.

Then in fourteen days BULGARIA ;'D. With my sisters my daddy and my gorgeous nephews! Oh my I CANNOT wait at all :'). I miss them so so so much! First holiday with them, eeeek ;'D.
I love my family.
Which leads me on to my mummy, who I have missed dearly whilst on my travels. It's her 50th on Friday and I have no idea what to get her cause to be honest the woman deserves more than the world but somehow I don't think I can get that. I best get my thinking cap on.

I love the fact summer has final started, well it started last weekend. School's over and I love having the next couple of weeks to myself while the others are still at school and that.
Dancing round my house in my underwear time me thinks ;). I also love how your school has finished now so I can spend this time with you, but we'll come on to you in a bit :').

On a downer I miss my Rachael, I haven't seen her in like two weeks or some shit now? Sad sad sad times and now she's fucked off to Spain ;(. I need to tell her about stuff starting with last Friday.

You just you. I don't really know what to say. I know I'm keeping it quiet but I don't know just don't want it to get ruined I guess? We'll see, but thank you:').
FML when the month and a half without talking to you comes around though ;/.

EEE as you can tell I'm in an amazing mood, roll on the rest of the summer starting with my first proper match for Arlesey Ladies tomorrow, B:fest tonight, Football awards Thursday and party on Friday ;'D ;'D ;'D.
Toodles.