all good things must end..

You, just you, there's no other way for me to start this but to say I am sorry.

I don't even know what for, I always seem to be the one saying it without knowing why, all I know is I truly am.

More than anything though I want to thank you. Thank you for everything you've done, even hurting me. See 'cause even when you hurt me, you made me stronger and when I really did need you, you were there. Maybe not so much any more, but you were. I guess that's basically my point. I feel this, her, is the beginning of our end. I get why don't worry, it's okay, and even when it goes pear shaped I'll be here for you, I promise. What sort of close friend would I be if I didn't? 

It wont be easy though, and forgive me if I try and hold on for a little bit. I sort of have to. I some how can't come to grips with it completely being the end I guess. I've even made friends with someone in order to save our friendship, you didn't see that one coming did you, ha. You used to be everything back when I had nothing and no you're turning into the nothing, you can see why that'd hard right?

And if I come out with random outbursts of anger, forgive me for that too. I know I've done this in the past, but when I didn't speak to you for a week, it was the harder, longest week ever. I'll have to get used to it I suppose.

So just thank you, for being there and just reassuring me when nothing was going right.
Thank you for putting huge smiles on my face constantly.

Thank you for making me strong.

Thank you for bringing me close to all these amazing people.

But mostly, thank you for being you.

I'll miss you freak ;).

xxxx